Inez On Break

He’s been present in my mind 24/7
Ever since long ago
When I was a freshman
He was my ball of sunshine
One truly unique blessing
And the day I missed his presence
Was the day I missed my essence
That day forward
I’ve felt as if
It hurts to love
When leaving that person makes you feel
Pain, sadness
All of the above
Sometimes I wish we’d never met
The way he’s changed my life
Is just one thing I won’t be able to forget
I love him with 100% of my heart
Which is why I hate the feeling
Of when we’re apart
It’s just really hard
Trying to be alone
And enjoying something to the fullest
When there’s a human being on my mind
And I can’t possibly stay focused
So this is why is hurts to love
You can’t go back
To feeling fully happy and independent
You get used to having someone there
Someone present

Updated meaning written on September 11, 2022: the negative effects of attachment issues that I’m still dealing with till this day. Once my mind says “I feel lonely without [blank],” I know that I’m not fully happy alone.